life updates

I originally planned on writing this post on my laptop and that’s when my laptop gave up on me so here we are. It’s honestly been time for me to get a new computer for a while but now I’m forced to . I also have to go ahead and get me a new camera as well. I’ll probably end up spending around $1k on both of those items combined and I’ve just accepted that at this point. If anyone has been wondering where I have been when it comes to blogging, I’ve cut back since I’ve started my podcast. You can find me on anywhere that you listen to podcast thanks to anchor. That website is really the easiest way to start a podcast. I’m almost 10 episodes in thus far with an episode dropping every week. It’s not easy to consistently drop content without being redundant especially since I’m recording each and every podcast by myself . They are about an hour long and I talk about anything that’s pretty much popular and sports. The views aren’t really there yet but I’m trying not to look at them. It becomes really discounting putting your work into something and it’s not getting any recognition. I don’t even know if my podcast is any good or not . I don’t know who actually consistently listen to it due to the fact that nobody ever hits me up or really promotes it saying that they love it or that it’s good . I wish I knew how many subscribers I had as well but that information isn’t available. What I do know is it’ll be difficult to record for the next few weeks until I get me a new computer . I also have rediscovered my love for photography. It’s really art in general, but mainly photography. I’ve already thought of aesthetics and silhouettes to shoot. I’m excited about it and I’m looking to grow my portfolio as a photographer .

It really seems like I’m writing a lot but there’s so much to talk about . I’m growing up and yet browning colder . I don’t really care about as much as I used to. My thoughts and values are starting to change as well. My relationships with people are much less important to me but I’m never the one to burn bridges. I think it’s important to spread love and only deal with people who bring joy into your life . I’ve been personally going through some things as well that I’d much rather not speak on but just know life hasn’t been easy day to day. Some days it’s a drag just living . Where I’m in a place of just daily confusion and to me , it’s becoming frustrating. My conversations with people are starting to become minimum and my interest outside of the things abover are starting become dull. Maybe I just need to be around more people that I’m like or I should hang with my friends more but I don’t know . Idk what part of life you’d consider me going through currently and I’ve rambled too long soo yeah. A few positives and a few negatives but just me being honest here, that’s all. Oh and I’ve paid off my car